Saturday, June 2, 2012

Decisions, Decisions.

So this past year I have been awesomely given the job of mommy. Though it has crossed my mind for the past ten months on weather I get a job or take on the duties of a stay at home mommy. Well let's be honest I would love the opportunity to spend each and every day with Scott to enjoy all his firsts. And so far I have, but I still felt bad about not bringing any income into the house. So in April I found a job as a dishwasher. It wasn't great but it was still a job and it made me feel better knowing I could buy things for my boy. Well as time went by every time I was at work all I could think about was staying home with Scott. I'm not spending enough time with Scott.

So I ended up leaving my job, well I was fired under ridiculous circumstances. Though I felt like a failure, my love had said "don't worry everything will be ok, just focus on Scotty." I felt very uneasy about him saying this because deep down I really knew where he was getting at. Stay at home mommy. The thought raced through my mind for weeks and I felt like I was unsure. I want to give him the best and I feel that way if I'm working, but maybe being super mom isn't whats best? What if god had intended me to be a stay at home mom? I was unsure of this for quite sometime until here recently my love had got a new job. He had told me that "if you want to go to work I won't stop you, but I would prefer you stay home with our son."

That very moment everything was clear. I knew in that very moment what would be best and what I thought was right. I have made the decision to stay home with my baby boy. I'm sure a lot of people think it'd be better for me to work but my mind is made up. Plus he's only this small once. And I wouldn't miss it for the world!

1 comment:

  1. Hey staying at home and being a full time mom is the biggest job out there. Your the full time everything person. Now that you have really made this choice try to do your very best. These are the times you make your habits as a mom for Scott's future memories. So learn how to cook more from scratch. It is fun, rewarding and taste tons better. You might find that you have dishes that become Scott's favorites when he is older. Check out for cleaning tips. Great way to start out with a system to make house work not so overwhelming. And make those times just for you too. Weather it be early mornings while all are asleep or that indulgent bath time for you me moment. Find yours. Proud of you Stacy! Your a good mom and Scott will thank you one day for always being there.