So this past year I have been awesomely given the job of mommy. Though it has crossed my mind for the past ten months on weather I get a job or take on the duties of a stay at home mommy. Well let's be honest I would love the opportunity to spend each and every day with Scott to enjoy all his firsts. And so far I have, but I still felt bad about not bringing any income into the house. So in April I found a job as a dishwasher. It wasn't great but it was still a job and it made me feel better knowing I could buy things for my boy. Well as time went by every time I was at work all I could think about was staying home with Scott. I'm not spending enough time with Scott.
So I ended up leaving my job, well I was fired under ridiculous circumstances. Though I felt like a failure, my love had said "don't worry everything will be ok, just focus on Scotty." I felt very uneasy about him saying this because deep down I really knew where he was getting at. Stay at home mommy. The thought raced through my mind for weeks and I felt like I was unsure. I want to give him the best and I feel that way if I'm working, but maybe being super mom isn't whats best? What if god had intended me to be a stay at home mom? I was unsure of this for quite sometime until here recently my love had got a new job. He had told me that "if you want to go to work I won't stop you, but I would prefer you stay home with our son."
That very moment everything was clear. I knew in that very moment what would be best and what I thought was right. I have made the decision to stay home with my baby boy. I'm sure a lot of people think it'd be better for me to work but my mind is made up. Plus he's only this small once. And I wouldn't miss it for the world!