Watermelon Cake!

Ok I was on my favorite website www.tablespoon.com and I found the most adorable cake ever! It strawberry cake that looks like watermelon! I know it's obvious but it's just too adorable.

Well from what I can tell it'll be an easy desert to make. It's pretty much strawberry flavored cake mix, icing, jelly beans and chocolate chips. But I figured I could make my own twist on it considering I can't stand buttercream icing. I'll swap it with cool whip instead. I'll just add pink food coloring a bam! You have pink icing. Same goes for the green part of the "watermelon".

Next ill put the chocolate chips in the middle and I'll be done. But I want to find a food flavoring to make it taste like watermelon but I don't think Betty Crocker has any. Well I can still look.

So I'll try and make this for Scott's birthday just to have a side treat. I don't know how big of a hit it will be but I can sure try it!

Just Another Day In Paradise!

Let's start from last night…
Scotty fought sleep like you wouldn't believe. He finally passes out around 11. I prayed to God he would sleep in. He did! Only wish I knew what I had I'm store for my wake up call. Poopy diaper malfunction! Lol

I'm not kidding, Scott managed to get poo everywhere lol. On his pillow, his blanket and all over him of course! Well I took him into the bathroom to get cleaned up and once he saw the tub I was in for trouble. He wiggled and squirmed so much that I ended up with poo all on my arms. I'll be honest if I wasn't used to this I would've been mad but I just laughed and got his bath water going.

After his morning bath Johnny made him breakfast, eggs. We say down and watched the land before time 2 gear valley adventures. Scott paid no mind to it but that's ok.

Well he's been acting funny today he constantly wants to be held. I don't know if it's because he's not feeling food or if he just wants to be held but it's driving me a tad bit bonkers! Lol I love him though. He was fighting sleep so much lately that im not sure what's going on. But he'd asleep right now thank god lol

Well just wanted to update you guys!

Girls Night: Guilty or Guilt Free?

So today I was able to get a mom break. It was wonderful! I got to go swimming and out to eat at IHOP. I also got to just relax and talk about things I can only talk to friends about.

Now I feel guilt knowing that I could be home with Scotty and soaking up mother and son time. But I Really believe that I deserve a break from all the craziness I call motherhood. I feel like sometime people criticize me on being a bad mom when I let my mom watch Scotty when I want a little me time. I know I'm not a bad parent it's just sometime I feel like he needs to be with me 24/7. Other patents may disagree and say "you need you time" but sometimes when you feel like everyone is watching you, you don't want to be labeled " the mom who pawns her kids off".

That's just something I never want to be labeled… I love my son more than anything it's just sometimes I need a break too.

Now here is where I feel guilty...
My mom called me a few minutes ago saying that something was going on with Scotty. She said that he's got a big red spot on his forehead and that she thinks that it's the reason he's being so cranky. Ok so my first thought was "oh my god Stacy, he's having an allergic reaction to something and I totally didn't see it!"

I feel so guilty and that it's my fault. I feel like if I didn't go be selfish and have me time Scott would not not be feeling good.

Scott is with me now and he seems to be in a better mood but I still feel guilty. So I am still debating was girls night wrong or guilt free.

Something Strange is Going On.

So lately I have noticed that something has been missing for four months now…

Yes its that friend every woman looks forward to meeting. I have a feeling it's from stress being too tired , you know different things that would postpone that visit.

Well lately I've noticed a few things that have been affected. I'm more sleepy now. Everytime I eat something I get naseaus. So long story short I have a feeling a bun is in the oven.

Now keep in mind I took seven stick tests and one blood test and they were a bit crazy with results. 2 stick tests came up positive and the rest negative so I was very unsure of things.

Now here it is June and I find myself having most of the symptoms but I'm pretty sure I'm not and it's just a virus. But I'm pretty much denying it like I did the last time I was pregnant and didn't find out till I was 3 months along.

I'm not sure if I will be ready for another one if I am pregnant again, but the signs are pretty clear and I don't know how everyone would look at me.. I'm debating on weather or not keeping it a secret if I am. At this very moment I'm not sure but I hope to find out really soon. I just hope no one would be mad at me.

Patience is a Virtue.

So even though we spent all day yesterday cleaning out that bedroom for Scotty he refused to sleep in there. So though his crib is in his new room I still had to pull the playpen into my room and put him to bed in it.

Don't get me wrong I know it'll take some adjusting but boy did he throw a huge fit! I felt bad letting him tire himself out by crying but sheesh he knew I was there and I wasn't going to let the "boogie man" get him.

And I thought I had bad anxiety? I think he has it worse than me lol. But that's ok because deep down inside I don't think I'm ready for him to be in his own room. *Sigh* I know he's growing up but the middle bedroom just seems so far away. God I really didn't know how scared of watching this little person I created grow up so fast... His birthday is in a month and I'm so not ready to say " my baby is one!" I kind of just want him to stay little lol. But that's not how it works.

Oh how I'm so scared of what the future holds for this special little boy. I'm am blessed to say that he's my son and that I am able to watch him flourish in life. Gee I just realized I'm babbling on and this was supposed to be about asking for tips on how to gradually get Scott comfortable in his new room lol. I guess this blog has also become a semi-journal.

Well he's sleeping peacefully in my room and I should be off to bed as well.