Well....this is awkward

So I noticed I've been M.I.A For quite some time now, but only because I thought my laptop was out of order so to speak. But anyways I know all of you were wanting to know how I'm doing in my last few weeks of mommy-to-be-ness. So here we go...

It has been quite the emotional roller coaster ride need I say,but things aren't always bad. Sometimes they're so sweet that I indeed want to cry, but isn't that how pregnancy is supposed to work? I believe so. Well moving on, I have four weeks left. Yikes! I honestly can not believe it. I'm actually rather sad because i feel like it went by extremely fast. I mean seriously, i had only found out i was ten weeks and six days in January. Now I have four weeks left. *Sigh*, this may sound odd but i wish it would have went by slower, but now that I'm about to pop heck I'm ready! Just like Spongebob :) The only thing I'm really worried about is after little Scotty is here. I'm already self conscious about how I look as it is, so lets go ahead and add stretch marks :( I have this feeling that Johnny won't see me as anything other than "pretty". Yes he does tell me I'm beautiful and things like that but I really don't feel it. Right now I just see myself as an over weight penguin. Hell make up doesn't even make me feel pretty anymore and that's saying something right there! Especially if you know me really well and know I'm pretty much obsessed with make up. Its just not doing its job for me now days. Its become just a hassle for me cause all I see it as now days is something else I don't need to worry about. I've got way too many things to worry about and stress over. Like sleep for example. And that's another funny thing, here lately I've been sleeping all day and completely wide awake at night. I think my son is telling me that he will NOT be a night time sleeper at all! If this is the case I'm leaving johnny to deal with the night time since he stays up all night. Hopefully johnny is indeed right and we have a good baby. Not saying I wont love Scott if hes a very fussy, bedtime fighting baby. I'm just hoping he's well behaved like some other babies I've seen. Johnny thinks he'll be a quiet baby for the simple fact he doesn't kick when johnny would like him to :) but that's OK. But I'm sure those two will have a bond like no other and that makes me happy just thinking about it :)

The Things That Go Through My Head On A Daily Basis

So the title may seem odd but what i mean by it is the conversations or thoughts i share with my unborn son, Scott. I am finally in that stage where I can feel this little boy move. And move a lot might I add. And I'll be honest i get quite mad at him sometimes, but i still love him <3! They say it feels like "butterflies" or "bubbles". It's not that i don't believe them its just the idea of butterflies in my stomach....yea not so much. If butterflies felt painful I'd believe you because when I was young "butterflies" in your stomach felt nice...not the way I am about to explain it. You see I have already experienced the bubbles, it tickles a lot. But however my idea of what people call "butterflies" is way different than yours. To me it hurts like here's how the scene went:

Me: (laying on the bed talking on the phone)
friend: (carrying on the conversation about game characters)
Me: (screams in pain) "oh my god!" (if you were on the phone you would have heard a "thud")
Friend: "what??!?!? Are you alright???
Me: "Of course not! I feel like Sygorney Weaver in alien!"
Friend: (awkward silence) "....uhm why?"
Me: "My son won't stop moving and it feels like hes gonna pop out my stomach at any moment!"

So yes, i admit i compared my son to an alien. I'm sorry if that offends anyone but that is seriously how it felt. I know its apart of motherhood but geez...when he moves its like hes thinking.."Hmmm...which way should i hurt momma today?" or better yet "oooh! momma's in the grocery store! If she doesn't grab anything I like I'm gonna kick." I promise you that my boy plots on me while he sits there bored in my tummy. Especially at night! if I'm really tired he feels the need to break dance or practice soccer/football. So all I have to say to him is this, "YOU HAD BETTER LIKE SPORTS!" If not then all that kicking was just pure evil. I love him none the less. I just hope he likes sports or something creative. I was never into all that, I was a artsy band nerd >.< but honestly i think he'll do good in whatever he chooses. I just wish he was here already so I can hold him (and so he can stop torturing my muscles and bones...and of course my bladder.).

Just my thoughts...

I couldn't write this and not cry like a baby...You see back when you and i used to talk about having a baby, you sounded all excited and now that were actually pregnant things are way diffrent. You used to talk about how you would do this and that and I just dont see it. Its like everything you said and promised has gone out the window. Not saying youre doing anything wrong its just I thought youd be around a little more often once everything happened. I thought youd actually be here for all the special moments like when i found out the gender...I begged you to come but you had school. The first heartbeat you werent there. All the appointments you couldve been at, you missed. Like today...i really felt the first kick, like really felt it and you missed that too. It all just hurts because i thought youd be more involved. And what i dont understand is that i live with you and you miss so much. i dont understand why its like we are strangers just sleeping in the same bed, living in the same house. But yet you miss out on so much. Im not bitching or being hormonal i just wish you were here more. I understand that you have work and school but with the little time you are around or home...its like youre still not even here. I just wish youd stop missing out on the special moments...it doesnt feel good to experience them alone.

The Beauty of Food and How Evil It Can Be

SO last night johnny brings home Wendy's! I haven't had Wendy's In forever so im supper excited about it. So once he gets in the room the first thing I notice is the frost! Oh my god(!) was it good too. Well anyways he's busy setting things up for us to eat (isnt he so sweet?) and I'm busy scooping frost into my mouth then all of a sudden *splash!* johnny had spilled his drink yet again. You know that guy has the worst luck with drinks in our bedroom. Like for real, every time he has a soda he always spills it right after the first sip. I really feel bad for him. Its like he has murphy's law when it comes to drinks I just don't know. Well he cleans up and we finally sit and get started watching Dragon Ball GT (go figure? of all shows to be watching ha ha). So as we're munching down on our meal and about half way through i realize i am tasting more grease than the actual chicken sandwich. This absolutely grossing me out i got up to find my drink (who has indeed grown feet and walked away >.>) and walking right by the trash can, i stop and yet again *splash* (I'm being nice so you don't get grossed out folks!). Ugh....i thought the morning sickness was over with by now. So after I have my episode i climb back into bed and start ranting about how fast food restaurants shouldn't leave their chicken sandwiches in the damn grease so long! john is over hear laughing at me by the way, so i get even more frustrated and rant some more. Which brings me to the other time food was evil to me....last time johnny brought home wings (yum!) well he did not specify that they were hot. So as I'm munching on these bad boys, I guess they were too hot for the baby so up they go. And let me tell you folks i thought they were hot going down but man were they even hotter coming back up. and what makes me more upset is how my throat hurt for the next week :( This is How evil food can be.

The Missadventures with Tammy, Savannah, and the kids!

So today i had to go with the family to pick up landon and T.K. Well you would think since its 3 females we'd gossip the whole way there, but no not too much. The funny stuff starts after we leave nonnie and poppy's. I dont recall what order this all went on in but its alot and bare with me. So as were going through town, Vannah asks landon if hes hungry? And the response to come out of this kids mouth i would expect to hear from a four year old. He says and i quote "I need chicken and fries!" This being the funnniest thing ive heard all day, come on youd laugh too, literally made my day. So before we got this kid his chicken and fries we had to stop to get johnny his dr. pepper and T.K.'s cookies. While we're waiting, landon is screaming his head off about wanting to go inside with Vannah. So i said "we'll go get your chicken here in a minute" He responds "NO! I wanna go get it!" me laughing i said well momma will be back in a minute and she take you to go get it" He of course just wants out of the car with momma. So I said "you ready to go get it (After seeing vannah walk out the store) ?" He says "yea can I get out?" So further on the road were all eating and talking and god forbid landon drops a french fry. So he starts undoing his saftey belt in search of this darn french fry! Well anyways we finally get him settled and back in the safety belt. On to the next funny thing....The radio! Some song comes on and all i know is the chorus says "damn, it feels good to be me!" Well heres where the super funny part comes. Landon starts jamming out and i swear it looks like he knows EXACTLY what this song is talking about. Which i wouldnt put it past him, this boy is such a ladies man. haha. well as were all thinking how cute this is, he finally finds his french fry! I guess good things come to those who wait? hmm who knew? well as we get a little closer to home, Vannah lets Landon play with her shades> well he starts whacking them babies up against the side of the car door. Vannah tells him. " landon if you break mommas shades ill cry." And i swear this child is the funniest kids alive! He looks at his momma And screams, not tells here, "CRY!" I on the other hand tried hard not to laugh but come on its funny. Well the last thing i do remember is he had a strip of bubble wrap. i asked him could i wrap him up and send him to me? and he said yes :p

So instead of my normal segment of wanting to punch folks This spot is to give my nephew a 5 star rating of funny!